This was my attempt to reflect on my experience with an eating disorder, which has taken up a large part of my life, since my teenage years and throughout my twenties. My eating disorder has made the visualisation of my future very difficult and sometimes held me back significantly, but throughout the past year of medical school and during the elective particularly – where we have been encouraged to express ourselves more openly – I have realised that I can only help others if I look after myself, so this piece is a reflection on all that I hope and look forward to as part of a healthier life and helping others with their own health struggles.